On the half birth of hope a seed was planted.
A seed of future, a seed of destiny.
Planted in a disturbed soul.
A loving soul, but one that has died.
Killed by starvation, the void of a tomorrow.
Killed by the complete lack of faith, no reason to walk on.
But still crying out, letting all hear it's story.
Very dangerous it is bringing back the dead.
A risk that could save or damn the soul for eternity.
If the seeds blooms healthy, natured by love, breathing with hope, then when the soul blooms,
Everything it touches will be refreshed, invigorated by the life living within it.
If the seed is grown with hate, then it will destroy, ca
Beautiful the candle is,
Living,
Dancing among the cold dark night,
A beacon of hope among despair.
Beautiful the candle is,
Dieing,
But dancing relentlessly,
More beautifully then ever before,
Whimsical in the moment.
Beautiful the candle is,
Dead,
But not forgotten,
The memory alive,
Dancing in thy soul,
The burn felt,
the scar remembered.
Beautiful the candle was,
Forgotten,
Murdered,
Murdered by the same essence that gave it life,
The Breath,
Corrupted by the vile human,
Human greed destroyed the flame.
Beautiful the candle is,
Living once again,
Dancing among the cold dark night,
The flame has no end,
The cyc
She Lies
A victim of Death's Refusal
Unwilling to submit her to rest
Curses her for her weakness
Until She learns her lesson
She cries,
hating life, beat by her father, cursed by her mother, raped by her boyfriend, she hides in her mind. She lives in endless sorrow, she wants it to end. She doesn't want to cry anymore. So she brings cold sharp steel to her wrist, drains the life giving blood, and then jumps into a pit of endless water, cold as corpses.
She wakes,
up in a room but she can't see, only hears, she hears her mother and farther crying for her. She regrets what she has done and wishes to live once again, for just one m
Lost of hope
Deprived of love
He sits rotting
His very soul being torn apart
Ripped
Shreaded
No purpose to survive
But too stubborn to summit
Not willing to ease the knife
To bring it home
The cold silent beautiful death
The draining of one's soul
He defeats Lady Death once again
To make her linger, tasting him
He sacerfices himself
Creates a shell
Holds all the pain inside
Lets none show
Containes the pain
Causing him to suffer
He survives
Battling himself daily, each breath, every second
A new wound for each battle
An unknown warrior, battle stained
A new suffering from each scar
Still forced to put on the smile
To
Faith - Searching for home by snakeeyesx, literature
Literature
Faith - Searching for home
Faith, Searching for Home
I lay down, soundless, motionless, speechless, not dead but worse, stuck, dreaming, but aware of everything happening , all around me, but I can't react, can't communicate, can't interact, stuck, stuck in a prison, stuck inside my head, where I can hear and see, but can feel and do nothing. People cry because they think I'm gone, because they think I will not comeback. They try to talk to me, but they don't think I can hear them so they morn, crying in pain, wishing, begging I'll come back, but they know inside I wont, but still they wish, still they try. And me, watching everyone hearing them, but I cant do anyt
I lay here watching from this ledge,
Wondering about the true meaning of dead,
Trying to keep hate from consuming me,
All i ever wanted was to feel free,
Traped inside this hell called earth,
I wonder about the passage called birth,
I think this is all just a test,
To allow your passage to your rest,
If this is all life can truly be,
Why the hell did it happen to me,
I demand more of this place,
And some heart of the fucking human race,
We kill, destroy, and rot our selves,
Why couldnt i be born in the world of the evles,
Where no human is aloud to be,
We spend all day in peace with the trees,
Then go to the mountains high and
Evil was born on the morn the sun forgot to rise
When hate and darkness join their bodies
And made life stealing love
What they created was hidden in Death\'s womb
Destiny for told it would kill, it would hate, it would destroy
It would be the end...
Years later it took form and walked the earth
The purist form of evil and all things bad
So vile that it changed Mother Earth
Causing her to kill and create suffering
Changed The Sun, causing him to burn his wife
The creation lived on
Killing Mother earth
Killing her children
Causing decay
Till it wasn\'t satisfied with the Mother\'s Children
It wanted more
So it started killing
I opened my eyes N then i died by snakeeyesx, literature
Literature
I opened my eyes N then i died
I open my eyes and then I see,
Me and my love just her and me.
I open my eyes and then I smell,
Her sweet body, my arms all around.
I open my eyes and then I hear,
I love you whispered in my ear.
I open my eyes and then i feel,
Her small warm body, i think it is love that i feel
I open my eyes and then i taste,
soft lucious skin, as i kiss her face.
I open my eyes and then i know,
I never want this feeling to go.
I close my eyes and then i see,
My only true love scared, with these feelings, has left me
I close my eyes and then i smell,
only my self, i must be in hell.
I close my eyes and i hear,
Death\'s sweet whisper in my e
So I stood among the cold dark night,
Watching the burning crescent hang low,
When upon the first drop of rain,
I felt the darkness grow.
The moon turned black,
The stars no more,
The darkness all around me,
In till I saw a cloaked man walk near,
His feelings completely blinding,
His pain and hate so completely pure,
His emotions overwhelming.
He stood there still,
Almost absent of life,
His eyes locked onto mine,
I could feel his soul's very presence,
I could feel his eyes cold and dark,
I could feel him searching,
Searching my soul,
Looking for something.
Then I heard him take a breath,
I could feel the presence of hope,
Desperate Letter - Not Yet by nelsmiley, literature
Literature
Desperate Letter - Not Yet
I hardly know you
I don't know you
why your eyes wonder across common faces
looking for something lost beneath the surface
an idea of explosive thunder
a child playing between the grinding teeth of a friend
or someone less strange
why your hair falls into your eyes
like stiff, brown cobwebs without magic
crawling with imaginary spiders
whispering the words you dare not say
living without a purpose
its crazy
you know?
how little things turn into illusion and metaphor
all in my head
when I see you
because I feel as though I could reach into your chest
and draw from you all the life I have been looking for
the depth that no
The Dreamer Sleeps - Revised by silverkitsune, literature
Literature
The Dreamer Sleeps - Revised
Closed eyes and a prone position hide the world,
Burning drops of liquid fire trickle down a stoic face,
Haunting dreams bring the promise of temporary sanity,
While a tormented mind finds rest at last.
A prison of blood, bone and sinew confine lurid thoughts,
While chimeras strangle new-born emotions.
The visceral animal paces in its cage, longing for release,
Waiting to make its one last, desperate stand against fear.
Reverie of a world ending in fire dances in a tainted mind,
Yet reason says the cold of a soul's winter will avert tragedy.
Self-preservation is strong motivation for a dying flame,
But can an icy hand kindle the re
Once again destiny has mistaken me
For a mindless believer
A fool
Who serves it's purpose
I believe noting
I control nothing
I was meant for nothing
Once again love has reminded me
It was never meant for me
Selective
I am not worthy
I can trust no one
I can love no one
I was meant for no one
What can I do?
How can I fight?
Why should I even try?
When will I be free?
Why can't this world let me die?
A leaky faucet down the hall
I hear through paper walls
Lover's moan and children pretend to sleep
Down the street all of the traffic lights are red
We all watch a public bloody crucifixion
Daddy's suffering from withdraw in a heroin rehab
Mommy's been drowning in a bottomless martini for days
I'm locked in a tower but my hair is not golden
And prince charming slit his wrists years ago
Preteens are huffing aerosol in the bathroom
In Israel everyone's dying in the name of religion
But I remember someone saying Jesus died for me
There's confusion here about whether we are slaves or have freedom
There was sodomy in the church today
I thought I knew you.
I though you knew me.
Why is it when you need help you ask for me?
Yet your not there for me?
All I wanted was a hello,
but why do you make me feel alone?
Who do you think I am?
Do you not know of my powers?
Why do you treat me like dirt,
and step all over me?
If you want I can be your friend.
I will never leave you,
need the end to set me free by the-firey-kage, literature
Literature
need the end to set me free
flames devour my body as a twisted devil taunts me, his demonic smile is to his dismay is returned as I spit and say "try harder, i live for this shit".
These blissful images all that great me in the world of slumber. Only when it chooses to steal me from the world can I sleep, but never do I rest.
Though I know it is only a dream, In reality nothing changes.
Still the torturous flames of hate attempt to devour me, and I struggle to hold on to a world that doesn't even care and would love to be rid of me. Still my personal daemons mock me, knowing all my weak spots the go for the kill but death would mean freedom so they force me to linge
crawl... behind the screen
trace fingers... in the dirt
footsteps following
...where are you?
don't find me
...where are you?
quivering... arms shake the tin
creep... slip out a moan
pounding closer
...stop moving...
he's coming
...Stop Moving!
we forget. never speak
sliding over... tearing eyes
lock head. grip... and drip
sliding pulled up flip back shoved in
we forget. never speak
forcing round... twitching switch
torn. bent down... sewer stench
dry rip ball small fist and clench
nails... torn apart
dig... into my cell
footsteps pausing
...now hold it in...
not again
...hold it in...
grip... and break the rod
hid
She Lies
A victim of Death's Refusal
Unwilling to submit her to rest
Curses her for her weakness
Until She learns her lesson
She cries,
hating life, beat by her father, cursed by her mother, raped by her boyfriend, she hides in her mind. She lives in endless sorrow, she wants it to end. She doesn't want to cry anymore. So she brings cold sharp steel to her wrist, drains the life giving blood, and then jumps into a pit of endless water, cold as corpses.
She wakes,
up in a room but she can't see, only hears, she hears her mother and farther crying for her. She regrets what she has done and wishes to live once again, for just one m
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Hey Everyone, Im back from China and just decided to come on and check things out, my page is very outdated and in the next week or so i'm going to get everything updated and just put some things form what I've learned, experinced ect ect.
For the record I was studying internal martial arts with 3 older master, all of who were amazing people and I learned an amazing amount from, hopfully will talk to all of you soon,
-Derek
We'll on the 6th of June I'm going to China for 6 months... I'll be training in various formes of Kung Fu, Tai Chi, and Wu Dang Martial Arts. I'll be living and training at the same place.
I'm going to try to write a peice or two before I leave just to see if I can get a little life in this old thing.
While I'm in China if you want me to add you to my list for my weekly China E-mail e-mail me at SnakeEyesX11@yahoo.com and I'll get you on my weekly update.
hey man, long time no see, i would email you but i totally lost your addy like a bajillion years ago. I'm useless at this internet stuff now days, but drop me a line if you have mine and i'll diffinately hit you back.
it's kinda my theme for the year, catch up with thew real people.
I never did get the apprenticeship. We should chill sometime, and catch up. Not now though. I've got finals for this term this week, and a lot of projects to finish >.<
For the record, thats a quote from the Thomas Covenent Series, there a great book series and if you played attention and used your head just a little bit you'd understand the meaning of the quote.
Its pointless to go around and bash other people, it shows lack of maturity on your part, I wish you the best and hope times helps you grow, cause as of now, you seem like a small person.
"for he is everything and nothing,
hero and fool,
potent, helpless-
and with one world of truth or treachery
he will save or damn the Earth
because he is mad and sane,
cold and passionate,
lost and found."
Way to show no emotion by pulling as much contridictory emotion as you can right out of your ass, this just pissed my off by principle...
I'm doing ok, I need to start writing again but I just can't seem to get the spark. I leave for China in about a month and a half for my training. We'll talk soon,